I was such a stupid person.
I was thinking that my motivation was given by boss (assign new project, promotion, etc…).
The motivation is, only in my mind, not be given by anybody.
Just go forward by myself.

We can live without aim/hope or something motivated things.
But those lives are not interesting.
I think everybody wants to archive something in one’s life.

What aim for ?
What is my future view ?

I have to figure out what I really want to be.

When I was young, I had lots of dreams but I had forgot them before I knew it.
I’m alive. But just spend time, wake up, eat, work, sleep … Did I hoped for it ? … No.
I need to think more about my own life, and hopefully I will find something *New Dream* for my life.

Is this same Autumn in your town ?
In Tokyo, No. Too warm weather everyday and still I don’t need to wear knit and coat. So strange.
Usually I put up with chilly weather only with sweater/knit and wool jacket till the end of November then start to wear coat from December.
But, this year, I don’t need to struggle with the weather and still I feel strong sun beam in daytime. So strange.

Do you do something good things for stopping the climate change in your daily life ?

I think my English level might be a child in a elementary school for native English speakers but am trying to say something about thoughts, so always it’s very difficult to describe my mind in English.
Why trying to write in English ?
Just would like to share my thoughts with people in all over the world and find different ways of thinking, not with only Japanese.

I believe I can tell something even with my poor vocabulary.

I have breast cancer and just finished chemo therapy 10 days ago. I don’t think the cancer is gone but I’m getting better and better so far (from the side effects).
I heard many people who have cancer depressed, felt so sad, or said “why me ?”, etc, etc ….
But somehow I’ve never felt like that. Just this is my life.
I don’t wanna waste time just complaining, and those thinkings make myself into bad conditions.

So, just trying to be honest myself and will do something what I wanna do.

People always compain about other people are people who make bad atmosphere. They always try to find someone’s faults or mistakes and say “He/She has no brain”.
I’m tired with listning those stupid words …

They don’t look like to try to think about someone’s background or skills and just try to talk with only their way of thinking.
I think the best way of communication is trying to think about other people’s situations so that people can find the best words for communications.
So, the most foolish people are people always comlainining. I think.

I will take 9 days holiday in this summer as usual. I’m thinking where I travel during the vacation.
Last year I visited Tunisia and it was nice to see around old Islamic towns and met some great people.
I’d love to visit an another Islamic country … I don’t have enough money for flight to Europe so maybe in middle-Asia area …

Any recommendations ?

Love to think about many kind of issues … always thinking, thinking, thinking …
Doesn’t matter if there are any answers.
I’d love to share my thoughts with everyone and it must be great if someone give me another point of views.

Thanks.