I was such a stupid person.
I was thinking that my motivation was given by boss (assign new project, promotion, etc…).
The motivation is, only in my mind, not be given by anybody.
Just go forward by myself.

I’m gonna think about what I really wanna do in my life. Will make priority on them, and will do.
Then, I hope I could find something important.

I feel like I had changed after I got the cancer. Actually I don’t feel I’m a unlucky person or something but definitely I became to be able to enjoy my daily life, somehow.
I hated that someone told about my fault if the person tried to let me know it, yeah, I was so bossy….maybe.
Now always those things sounds like joke and I appreciate them.

Finally I could became an mature person ?

I think my English level might be a child in a elementary school for native English speakers but am trying to say something about thoughts, so always it’s very difficult to describe my mind in English.
Why trying to write in English ?
Just would like to share my thoughts with people in all over the world and find different ways of thinking, not with only Japanese.

I believe I can tell something even with my poor vocabulary.

I have breast cancer and just finished chemo therapy 10 days ago. I don’t think the cancer is gone but I’m getting better and better so far (from the side effects).
I heard many people who have cancer depressed, felt so sad, or said “why me ?”, etc, etc ….
But somehow I’ve never felt like that. Just this is my life.
I don’t wanna waste time just complaining, and those thinkings make myself into bad conditions.

So, just trying to be honest myself and will do something what I wanna do.

People always compain about other people are people who make bad atmosphere. They always try to find someone’s faults or mistakes and say “He/She has no brain”.
I’m tired with listning those stupid words …

They don’t look like to try to think about someone’s background or skills and just try to talk with only their way of thinking.
I think the best way of communication is trying to think about other people’s situations so that people can find the best words for communications.
So, the most foolish people are people always comlainining. I think.

Love to think about many kind of issues … always thinking, thinking, thinking …
Doesn’t matter if there are any answers.
I’d love to share my thoughts with everyone and it must be great if someone give me another point of views.

Thanks.