* lost in thought » about myself http://www.a-photoblog.com my thougts with photography Thu, 27 May 2010 14:00:10 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.2 en hourly 1 * Motivation http://www.a-photoblog.com/2010/05/27/motivation/ http://www.a-photoblog.com/2010/05/27/motivation/#comments Thu, 27 May 2010 14:00:10 +0000 Ayako Tamura http://www.a-photoblog.com/?p=54 * Kamogawa River

Sometime in July 2002, at Shijoohashi, Kyoto, Japan
Voigtlander Bessa R2 + Voigtlander Color-Skopar 35mm f2.5 C-Type + Fijifilm NEOPAN SS

I was such a stupid person.
I was thinking that my motivation was given by boss (assign new project, promotion, etc…).
The motivation is, only in my mind, not be given by anybody.
Just go forward by myself.

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Sometime in February 2002, at Kitami, Hokkaido, Japan
Nikon New FM2 + Ai Nikkor 50mm F1.4S

We can live without aim/hope or something motivated things.
But those lives are not interesting.
I think everybody wants to archive something in one’s life.

What aim for ?
What is my future view ?

I have to figure out what I really want to be.

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March 26 2010, at New York, USA
Nikon D700 + AF Nikkor 35mm f/2d

When I was young, I had lots of dreams but I had forgot them before I knew it.
I’m alive. But just spend time, wake up, eat, work, sleep … Did I hoped for it ? … No.
I need to think more about my own life, and hopefully I will find something *New Dream* for my life.

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September 25 2003, at Basilique Sainte-Madelaine, Vezelay, France
Voigtlander Bessa R2 + Voigtlander Color-Skopar 35mm f2.5 C-Type

I’m gonna think about what I really wanna do in my life. Will make priority on them, and will do.
Then, I hope I could find something important.

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September 26 2003, at Lyon, France
Voigtlander Bessa R2 + Color-Skopar 35mm f2.5 C-type

I feel like I had changed after I got the cancer. Actually I don’t feel I’m a unlucky person or something but definitely I became to be able to enjoy my daily life, somehow.
I hated that someone told about my fault if the person tried to let me know it, yeah, I was so bossy….maybe.
Now always those things sounds like joke and I appreciate them.

Finally I could became an mature person ?

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Sometime in August 2003, at Inamuragasaki, Kamakura, Kanagawa, Japan
Voigtlander Bessa R2 + Color-Skopar 35mm f2.5 C-type

I think my English level might be a child in a elementary school for native English speakers but am trying to say something about thoughts, so always it’s very difficult to describe my mind in English.
Why trying to write in English ?
Just would like to share my thoughts with people in all over the world and find different ways of thinking, not with only Japanese.

I believe I can tell something even with my poor vocabulary.

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January 12 2003, at Sculpture Garden Museum Vangi Museo, Shizuoka, Japan
Contax RXII + Carl Zeiss Planar T* 1.4/50

I have breast cancer and just finished chemo therapy 10 days ago. I don’t think the cancer is gone but I’m getting better and better so far (from the side effects).
I heard many people who have cancer depressed, felt so sad, or said “why me ?”, etc, etc ….
But somehow I’ve never felt like that. Just this is my life.
I don’t wanna waste time just complaining, and those thinkings make myself into bad conditions.

So, just trying to be honest myself and will do something what I wanna do.

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